QUOTE(Victoria Silverwolf @ Jun 10 2008, 03:00 AM)

This year seemed to produce more intense bitterness between

members than usual. Perhaps that's unavoidable in a Presidential election year. However, the
nighttimer-
Wertz feud really took me by surprise.
I think it took
us by surprise, as well. I imagine, though, that some here may have taken a bit of pleasure in it:
'tis a pleasant Scene enough, when Thieves fall out among themselves, to see the cutting of one Diamond with another.
In previous years, this thread was called "What I've Learned" and/or "How My Views Have Changed" or similar. Well, I can't say my
views have changed much this year, but I do feel that I've learned a good deal - not only about political issues, but about myself.
Our political opinions are shaped by a great many things: experience, research, the courses of our own lives - and by people close to us. While most of us like to think that our opinions are our
own - formed through thoughtful consideration and rational contemplation, I think we'd be fools to suggest that we aren't also influenced by the positions of parents, teachers, friends, lovers - our partners and our children - and those at a bit more of a remove: columnists, essayists, pundits, bloggers, and even participants in online debate.
There are also times, though, when our faith in these "sources of opinion" can be shaken - which can lead us to question the foundations of many of our beliefs. This happens to many of us, I suspect, when we get old enough to begin questioning our parents' beliefs. If we're particularly rebellious, we may reject
everything they held dear. This also happens through education - we may have a particularly conservative civics teacher or a free-thinking college professor, we may start reading Noam Chomsky or Friedrich Hayek or Ayn Rand or Gore Vidal. Later in life, when we've become somewhat settled in our beliefs, we begin looking to "like minds" - choosing the
Washington Post or the
Washington Times, Fox News or MSNBC, Michelle Malkin or Maureen Dowd - more to confirm our opinions than to challenge them. Epiphanies become increasingly rare with age.
On the other hand, even as rigid an ideologue as myself can also, if we're secure enough in our beliefs, seek out those of differing or opposing views - perhaps to try to understand the opposition in order to better rebut their views, perhaps to "enlighten" or even "convert" them, perhaps to simply feel superior and vent. But, sometimes, we may look to others to
be persuaded - especially if we're uncertain of our positions or have not yet formed an opinion. We may look to commentators or essayists we trust, we may look to people like
Dontreadonme or
nighttimer,
moif or
Mrs. P,
Amlord or
Lesly - I could go on (and on) - people who are well-informed, people we respect, people who
have taken clear positions and have the ability to articulate and defend them. And, while I have as much respect for most people here as I've ever had - and consider their opinions as well-articulated as ever, I have been subjecting everyone to a lot more scrutiny and have been depending more on primary sources, ideally those based on raw numbers rather than anyone's
interpretation of "facts".
And that brings me to a minor epiphany that I
did have this year - and, of course, it was related to the primaries. I mentioned something similar to this in a PM a little while ago (so if you're the person with whom I was corresponding, my apologies for cutting and pasting a bit). This election cycle has led me to rethink a lot of stuff - like the extent to which my own prejudices color my perceptions. For example, I used to think Keith Olbermann was annoying, but frequently admired what I saw as his almost heroic attempts to speak truth to power. While he was often a lone critic (on cable news anyway) of some of the worst excesses of the Bush administration, his "heroism" basically boiled down to the fact that I
agreed with him. During the primary season, what I used to find annoying, became downright detestable: his smug bias is ludicrously transparent (and mean-spirited) and the level of spin - nay, outright distortion and misinformation - is astonishing. I think I'm generally able to see through spin no matter which side is doing the spinning, but this season I was led me to question how many of my previous opinions
were influenced by spin - or if it was just a matter of seeing my own biases confirmed.
Similarly, I've been wondering if a few participants here were
always jerks and that I've only seen it recently because we've been on opposite sides where previously we might have been in agreement - or if the jerkery has only emerged in relation to Barack Obama, Hillary Clinton, or John McCain. I'm sure there are more than a few here who didn't realize what a jerk
I could be until my total mistrust of and utter lack of faith in Barack Obama became apparent (though I'm sure there are Bush supporters here who could tell them that I've been this much of a jerk all along). Whatever the case, I have been more disappointed in quite a few people that I formerly held in fairly high regard (and not just here, by any means) than I would have imagined possible. I think I'm down to about two commentators now that I feel have even a
minor grasp of reality. I guess I had been putting more stock in the comfort of "like minds" than was good for me.
In any event, I am now taking
everyone's opinion with a grain of salt - or, in some cases, a truckload of salt - even those with whom I agree. And that includes my own opinions.
Also, looking back, this was the first year in a long time during which I met no other AD members in person.

Having previously met
Jaime and
Mike (several times),
Mrs. Pigpen,
Eeyore,
Paladin Elspeth,
Curmudgeon,
CubeJockey, and a few others, I can definitely vouch for some of the
Member I'd Most Like To Meet nominations. My phone conversations, blog exchanges, and PMs with members as diverse as
johnlocke,
Doclotus,
overlandsailor,
nighttimer, and
Aquilla (to say nothing of chat room sessions with a wide variety of members) confirm my suspicion that participants here are not only great online debaters, but great - and very entertaining - company.
Now that I'm back in the bitter industrial wasteland of the northeast (albeit in the lush oasis of central Pennsylvania), and have no idea
when I might get back to Savannah

, there's an open invitation to anyone in the area - or anyone traveling to the vicinity of Washington DC, Baltimore, Pittsburgh, Philadelphia, or New York - to get in touch. This is a beautiful part of the country, we have a couple of spare rooms (and a
tourist attraction!), we're not
too far from places like Lancaster and Gettysburg (and the cities mentioned above), and I'm
much more pleasant in person than I am here.

So... feel free to drop me a PM. I miss AD contact!