Well, as one of those contemptible people who
has previously emigrated, largely for political reasons (as a result of the Reagan administration), I would have to say that I don't see myself as a villain to my cause. My cause then, as it is now, was to live in liberty and pursue happiness - for myself and my loved ones. And that comes before any plot of land.
One of the problems with this debate is that it seems many people still feel that the United States of America is the greatest country on earth and simply cannot comprehend someone wishing to abandon it's much-touted freedoms - and that the US of A is "the cause". Well, the United States is
not the greatest country on earth. Sure, it's among the top ten or twenty in a number of respects, but apart from its sadly abused and largely neglected Constitution, America is really nothing special compared to a dozen or so other plots of land.
Don't get me wrong: I love this country and believe that the
ideals on which it was founded are equal to none. The leadership of this country, however, spits on those ideals, urinates on those freedoms, and defacates on that Constitution - on a daily basis. When I saw this happening twenty-odd years ago, I was depressed, angered, and frightened. Now that I see it happening again - and with the support of a
majority of its citizens - I am depressed, angered, frightened, and bereft of Hope.
In 1980, my partner and I asked ourselves if this was the country in which we wanted to live our lives - the country in which we even
could live our lives. At that time, we saw a rise in corporatism which can
only be described as fascist. We saw civil liberties and civil rights under threat. We saw the unfair promotion and advancement of the privileged and the unjust, uncaring marginalization of the poor. We saw a greater divide emerging in this country than had been observable since the Civil War. And we saw a frightening rise in the political effectiveness of Christian fundamentalism, which we viewed as both blasphemous and anti-American. As gay men, we also saw it as a very real threat to our well-being, and even our liberty.
We decided to leave the country because it was no longer the America which we knew and loved - and we felt powerless to effect any real change, especially after "Iron Man" Reagan was deified by surviving an assassination attempt. We asked ourselves if there were countries in the world which lived up to
our ideals - and those of America's founders. And we found that there were - and America was
not one of them.
So we moved to Ireland - where we knew no one, had no place to live, no jobs, no prospects, and about $2000 in cash. There, we were able to live openly as a gay couple (while gay men and lesbians in America were becoming pariahs). We were able to find work and not only work hard ourselves, but create work for others (while in America we would have been struggling in jobs which we hated). We were able to form a corporation which received funding to launch a number of civic events and found a theatre company (while such funding was being decimated in the US). We were able to afford dental and medical care (while in America, we couldn't even afford health insurance). We were able to identify ourselves as socialists without derision or fear of being beaten up and could actually vote for candidates who
represented our beliefs - and sometimes see them win (while in America we would only have had the option of the corporatist candidate or the somewhat less corporatist candidate). We were able to publish our thoughts and ideas and earn income from them (while in the US we would quite possibly have got ourselves arrested for sedition). We were able to pay taxes and see the results in a good education system, good public transport, good job training programs, good healthcare, a good economy, good laws, and a
just justice system (while everything in the US was going to hell). We were able to do volunteer work with AIDS organizations and drug rehab centers (while the US was throwing millions of dollars at a "war on drugs" which did nothing to help a single addict and totally ignoring the AIDS epidemic because of the Reagan government's utter contempt for those who were "not like us"). We were able to live in a country which was militarily neutral and whose armed forces were only ever used for peace-keeping (while the US was bloodying its hands daily in the third world, notably Latin America, in order to bolster violent dictatorships and support terrorist states which were friendly to US business interests). We were able to foster two sons and raise a
family (while in America we would probably have been jailed as pedophiles for taking in two teenage boys). We were able to have
a good life, free from fear. We would have had
none of that in the United States.
Had we stayed in America, we would probably both be dead now. If not, we might well be in prison or living in destitution. We would certainly not have a family - and possibly not each other. Sure, not all of the fears we had in 1980 were realized. There were no internment camps by the end of the Reagan years - though, to a large extent, there didn't need to be: enough people were allowed to die through poverty and neglect to have counted, anywhere else, as genocide.
But, after four years of George H.W. Bush, enough people finally started coming to their senses and saw how far the country had slipped over the preceding decades. We saw Clinton, for all his faults, as something of a saviour of the American Dream. When he was re-elected, we finally thought America might be turning around and was, perhaps, back on the progressive road it had been following since its inception. We thought it was safe to come home.
I guess that just shows how wrong one can be.
Today, we are faced with all the horrors which were confronting the country in 1980 - though they are worse by an order of magnitude. The Bush administration is the most autocratic and fascistic government this country has ever known. The amoral "religious" fundamentalists are a more powerful and coddled lobby than ever. Racism and homophobia are rampant and more insidious than ever. America has become even more of a global vigilante - and for the greediest, most power-hungry reasons imaginable. The rich are richer, the poor poorer - and minorities more disenfranchised than they have been in fifty years. Self-evident rights are being
taken away - and America's freedoms and ideals, as well as her Constitution, are under graver threat than ever before in our history.
My partner and I are again facing the prospect of leaving the country. Not because we are bitter over a lost election. Not because we are upset by the imbalance in our branches of government (which, with each judicial nomination and Cabinet replacement, are becoming more imbalanced). Not because we think the oppostion is "stupid". Not because of a personal dislike for President Bush. But because we feel powerless - and are
terrified.
A
recent survey found that Ireland has won the world contest for best quality of life, while the US has slipped to thirteenth place. Given the option, do we really want to live in a thirteenth-rate country?
Part of me is all for staying and fighting, but those who hate me most are heavily armed and extremely dangerous - I wouldn't stand much of a chance. My partner is leaning toward making a better life elsewhere - again. We did what we could during the six years since we returned to the nation of our birth, we tried to make a difference - we contributed, we campaigned, we debated, we volunteered, we broadcast, we published, we voted. Perhaps we can do better from afar. If nothing else, we'd enjoy more
freedom - and we'd be
safer. And that, my friends, is a
fact. If America can no longer guarantee me life, liberty, and the pursuit of happiness (and it
can't), then what the hell am I doing here?
If "the cause" is freedom, I can't consider those who choose to leave this God-forsaken country "heroes", but neither can I think of them as "villains". Cowards? Maybe - if that's what one calls self-preservation these days. Looking after one's own interests? If that's how one views those who seek freedom where they are most likely to find it. The problem here -
my problem - is that I no longer have much of a stock of Hope. I have lost faith in this country - and, to a large degree, I do not trust my fellow citizens. I certainly don't trust their judgment. There has been talk here of "the future of the country". Frankly, I don't see this country as
having much of a future - not any more.
One of our sons and his American wife are thinking of moving from Ireland to the US. I have strongly advised against it. There is nothing here for them. They are blessed to be living in a country where opportunity is plentiful, where education is good, where healthcare is affordable, where crime is practically non-existent, and where people demonstrate their Christianity by loving their neighbors, not by killing them. There is nothing they can have in the US that they can't get in greater abundance where they are.
This is not a question of "compromise" or "willingness to work together" or an "inability to meld" as
Hobbes suggests. Am I to "tolerate the views" of those who feel that I should have no rights, that I am less than human, that America would be a better place were I dead? One can't "compromise" with one's executioner - thanks for the offer, though. I'm sure that there were many who said of the Jews who fled Germany in the late thirties, "Good riddance." And I'm sure they meant what they said.
As we've just celebrated Thanksgiving, maybe it's appropriate to close this with a few lines from William S. Burroughs'
Thanksgiving Prayer, written at the height of the Reagan era:
Thanks for a continent to despoil and poison...
Thanks for the American Dream - to vulgarize and to falsify until the bare lies shine through...
Thanks for the KKK...
Thanks for "Kill A Queer For Christ" stickers...
Thanks for a country where nobody's allowed to mind their own business...
Thanks for the last and greatest betrayal of the last and greatest of human dreams.
There was a popular bumper sticker during the Vietnam War:
America - Love It or Leave It. That works for me. And I cannot love an America whose populace would elect a government intent on the destruction of everything the America I
once loved once stood for, a government which thrives on division, intolerance, and hatred. I'm beginning to think that Americans don't
deserve freedom - the majority either takes it wholly for granted or doesn't give a damn. Well, other nations
do give a damn. And I'm beginning to think that the
real fight is abroad: the fight against American hegemony as envisioned by the fascistic autocrats who now control the government of this once-great land.
Will I stay and fight it out? At this point, I really don't know. But if I
do stay, I'm buying a gun - several guns. And
lots of ammunition. Because that, ladies and gentlemen, is what this country is coming to. I can "enter into dialogue" with most people here. I cannot enter into dialogue with the anonymous person who posted in my LiveJournal that I, personally, deserve "a bullet in the head".
If I decide to join my family in Ireland - if I decide to live in freedom and peace rather than fight my countrymen for the freedom and peace they are so willingly throwing away - I
won't let the door hit me on my way out. And you can call me whatever you like.